Never Be the Same Again

[Sky]

When everything goes wrong I turn to you.
But now where are you? Will I see you again?
I hope you might return back to me
I was a secret to be kept wasn't I?

Life is so messed up. It makes you go up and down, side to side. The world of narcautics.... it takes away the pain. The suffering, I will always be apart of a tragedy. Everything in my life is crazy and mixed up. I hope one day I may look back and laugh but..... will it be so easy to get to that point? Maybe..... Maybe not.

[Sky]

Human behaviour...... is mostly filled with hate and anger. Well thats the way I see it. The few saints left alive try to excert themselves. They try to make sure everyone is fine. Before they worry about themselves, is that a good thing to do?

But what if your anger comes from a resentment.... of yourself. You tried to patch things among your friends. Smiled when the world turns against you. When a loved one when ruins the chance of the century. When your beloved parents decide enough is enough, and call their relationship quits. Refusing to work out their differences. And not to mention the death of someone who will be sorely missed.

I'm sorry Lara for not noticing these things before.


Saints Of Many Kinds
I'm sorry that you tried so hard to not cry and fold into the hate of the world
But my own sorrow is diminuative compared to yours
I'll miss your smile
I'll miss that sparkle in your eyes
But most of all I will miss the saint
Your passionate fire being distinguished
You couldn't help but try and fix things...
But why did you have to be harmed in the process
I have a quesiton for you, why did you have to think this is your duty?
Everything is right when you point out the way for me
But I alwasy fell behind without that guidance
Now I'm lost, I'm waiting to be found now
The world always seems to have a new plan to keep me down
Please take me away from this place and into paradise
All I can ask is that may I have the strength not to cry
But life it the enternal lie.
John Carifelle.
Original Poem

Inspire Me
Strength varies because of the person, but you... your different
Something absolutely unexplainable.
But that one thign draws the world towards your very presence
When you told me about how you feel
I never thought before how this must affect.
And all I can say now is that I am sorry
You inspire me, you helped me go on

But what thanks can I give back to you?
I listen to the songs you since while being silly
I laughed and smiled, and truly remembered you
Now we've changed but thats a given isn't it?
I wanted to be there, but I was never able to be
You've found a new family, although it wasn't what you wanted
But all I can do is smile and try and be happy. You inspired me.
John Carifelle.
Original Poem